downI've realized that I can be a "speak-only-when-spoken-to" kind of person. Maybe I just don't know enough things to talk about. Or maybe I just don't want the attention to be on me too much that I just prefer giving MY undivided attention. Another thing is, I'm careless. I don't know how to take care of myself and I have to find things out for myself unless someone else points it out for me. I've also realized how the phrase "I'm sorry" has come to be so useless already. What else is there to say? Nothing. Just do. Do. Do. Do. But what if you don't know what action to take?
It's sad that in some ways, I still don't know why I act the way I do. I just don't know myself enough to explain. Like how I don't seem to know what to say to a person when we're standing face-to-face but when it comes through writing, I have a cupful of feelings to pour. Or like how I say that I am okay when later on I'm just going to think to myself and then feel like crying afterwards.